two days in a row

This is my second post in two days. I have had bits of calm, but it is still amongst anxiety and worry. I feel like it takes me a long time to get wound up in the morning. It's hard to get out of bed, even if I'm not tired. It's hard to get dressed and into work. And then it's hard to start being productive at work.

I read online yesterday that anxiety can preclude depression. In other words, you get so worked up and worried about something, that you start to have feelings of hopelessness.

I really need to have a positive attitude. I do have so many things to be thankful for. I mean, just look at what recently happened in Haiti. That country has so many problems to begin with, let alone what's happened in the last two days. My heart goes out to those people who have lost so much.

I did finally exercise yesterday. I rode my bike on the trainer in front of the TV for twenty minutes during "Ghost Whisperer". That show always makes me cry. At least it does now. Maybe I should try to do thirty minutes of exercise tonight. The hardest part is to just actually get on the bike and start pedalling.

I feel like I'm slouching a lot lately. I wish I would make more of an effort to sit up straight. It seems like my posture is related to my confidence. I wish I had more confidence, more hope, more positive thoughts. I wish I was not so scared. I wish I could find my St. Jude necklace too. Ok, I guess I better try to do some work now....